several months ago i had the blessing of participating in a wonderful workshop called soul shooting, put on by 4 lovely & incredibly gifted women – sarah robertson, molly flanagan, rosina waszaj, and kellie hatcher. i have been inspired by all of their work, so i was thrilled to be able to spend an afternoon with them and others like me, learning and sharing together! through this community of photographers, i am honing my creative voice and learning to create images that stir and touch the heart! we have monthly assignments that stretch and challenge me as i grow.
for the month of september, i wanted to do a mini session that highlighted the joys of mothering. to be totally honest, the eyes of my heart haven’t been working so well lately, especially when it comes to mothering. all iam able to see, in my own life, is how i fall short, how i disappoint, and all that i am not able to do! it is terrible!!! my heart is so heavy and i am really, really struggling!!! i am asking God to help me see more clearly, more truly! i want eyes that are better able to see the beauty and joy amidst my brokeness and mess! i need jesus to help me actually believe that it’s because of what HE did, that i am enough, i am ok! i want to know deep down, that i can rest because he has me! but how i struggle to understand those truths in the heat of the moment, when all i can see is dirt & flab & pee puddles & an empty fridge & all the ways i am FAILING!!!! ahhh… God save me!
ok, me… deep breath!
so, for this assignment, i wanted to put on rose colored glasses. you know how it’s always easier to see beauty outside yourself? like all pregnant women are radiant and sexy, but when i get pregnant, all i feel is huge and puffy! well, i knew that i wanted to get out of my home and practice seeing beauty in another momma’s home; and when i thought of what mamma i might photograph, my new friend lisa immediately came to mind! lisa and i both live in the same town, and we both live in homes with 2 bedrooms and 1 bathroom. i wanted to photograph her because i am so intrigued by the simple beauty she exudes as she goes about caring for and homeschooling her 4 (with one on the way) kiddos, in such a similar space as my own.
ok, so before you too begin to feel inferior (for that’s where i can go, all too quickly) let’s suspend judgement of ourselves and seek to see beauty in her home and family, for in doing so, i pray we might strengthen our own eyesight to see beauty that also exists in our homes. i don’t want to glorify lisa as the perfect mother or make her into something she’s not. i simply sought to capture a bit of the beauty that shines when one sacrifices self for another!
may you see these images in that light and too be inspired to see the beauty in your own home.